Purify my heart
Let me be as gold and precious silver
Purify my heart
Let me be as gold, pure gold
Refiner’s fire
My heart’s one desire
Is to be holy
Set apart for You, Lord
I choose to be holy
Set apart for You, my Master
Ready to do Your will
Purify my heart
Cleanse me from within
And make me holy
Purify my heart
Cleanse me from my sin
Deep within
<Refiner’s fire by Brian Doerksen>
“Where is my father? What is at the center in my heart? Where is the Lordship in my life? Where is my humble heart? Where is my true love? What is my desire? Why do I want to cherish every moment? What is it for? Who is it for? ”
So many questions were in my mind today, the first day in Korea. Hunger to start my summer journey with the God at the center in my every day life brought me so many questions today. I really wanted to prepare my heart before Him. I wanted to lift up this summer vacation to Him through remembering God’s faithfulness every moment and living with the true passion in Him at the center in my heart. Too many thoughts actually did not really help throughout today. My dad gave me a book for a gift. Its called 그청년 바보의사 <The Young man, silly doctor.> Its about how this young doctor dedicated His life to God through sharing Gospel for those who needed healing, and through living as an instrument of God. His testimony is truly amazing that God called so many people through the young doctor, and that the young man’s dedication, passion, and faithful heart to be the follower of Jesus encouraged so many other brothers and sisters. It could just end as one man’s life story, but it was quite an significant moment for me to see myself where I put God in my life, and why I desire God to bring healing through my music. I need to confess that all my life was about me before, not Him. I always wanted to see how God would use ME, but never thought about God be lifted up through my music. I might have never wanted God be the center, but just wanted to focus on my life that every one praises. I may still have those desires in my heart, and fight against them every day.
Before I started practice for the first time in my room, I prayed that God would be at the center in the room that I would be filled with His presence and practice for Him, but not for anything else. God is so good that He never let any other thought disturb my concentration, but empowered me through Holy Spirit. After practice, I closed with the prayer. I praised for His goodness even in the little moment of my life that I could stay awe in His presence. God is so good.
I am reminded fresh that before I ask Him for anything, I have to confess that He is the only one who can make me pure so that I can start from the very bottom without any burdens of sin. I did not know how to be humble, but now I start seeing little by little that the greatness of humble heart always starts from the confession and the desire to be pure. I still fall short of the glory of God and fail many times.. I pray that even in the failure, I would stay in the presence of God that I would ask Him for strength and mercy upon me.. because He knows everything. God, please be the center. God, please be my desire. God, please be my light.
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